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My newest site! Thanks to Ruby for the idea of a new site!
It's a graphics site! I'll put all my pixels and avatars there!
Having trouble getting to the site? Click this link instead.
♥, Yuki
Wednesday, January 16, 2008, 5:16 PM
Death and Loss
Oh. My. God.
I've just found out that...Dad's friend died. It was during this morning.
That old guy that came to Dad's parties. He died.
My Dad has known him for 40 years. I've known the guy ever since I was, like, in diapers.
I miss the old dude. He gave me lots of stuff and was really kind to me.
Dad's gonna go to his funeral soon. Maybe I should go, too.
♥, Yuki
Tuesday, January 15, 2008, 7:18 PM
Change
I don't want to change! ... But I want to earn the respect from everyone I know ...
Today I've realized that everyone in my class hates me. Other than my friends.
Suuchi thinks that maybe I should be more positive. That I should be more friendly around others and not just around my friends.
Good advice.
But that'll take me a long time to get used to.
Sure, I'm negative, gloomy and quiet.
But does that give anyone the right to say I'm a B-word or that I suck?
I mean, what have I ever done to everyone? I haven't done anything to embarrass anybody, neither have I tried to be a "snitch" and get somebody in trouble.
My conscience says: " Dude, they hate your guts, you have to live with that."
Sure. Like I can live with a rotten community infested with disrespectful, spoiled, bratty peers.
Seriously.
Another friend of mine has told me to change my look, smile, and be nicer.
I could be nicer, but changing my look?! HECK, NO! I'm not going to change my straight, short hair into a long, frizzy disaster!
Neither am I going to try tying up my hair(tried that once, every kid in the school was practically laughing their heads off).
I could try putting a clip to keep the hair out of my eyes...
The smiling part is worse. I just can't.
I'm only comfortable around people I know. I just hate smiling around anyone else.
Last time I did that, I was known for being the ugliest girl in the school.
Ugh. Any girls that have been in this situation before? Your welcome to gimme all your advice in my CBox or just post a comment.
♥, Yuki
I'VE MOVED. THIS SITE IS NOW OFFICIALLY CALLED BITTER EMOTION!
Now I need to change my links ...
Thursday, January 10, 2008, 8:28 PM
"Bad" News
I haven't told you this, but...
Ever since the divorce, me and my brother have been forced to go to our mom's house. We weren't forced by our Dad, but by the law.
My mom can be very manipulative in public, especially in court. She begged the government to give her one day to spend with us, her kids. Just so she could make us miserable.
And that day was Sunday.
I really didn't care back then, I thought the usual thing you do around your mom when you were small.
" 'Yay! I'm going to see mommy! We'll have SO much fun playing! YAAAY!' Is that what you must've thought? " Err...yes.
Anyway, I kept thinking the same childish thought.
That thought stopped buzzing in my mind when my mother scolded me for the first time. Her voice was cold and shrill. It pierced me like a needle.
It was sometime when I was, like, 7 or something.
My thoughts of her completely changed from that day onward. "Dude, she just yelled at you once. "
No, she kept scolding me and my brother for apparently no reason at all. Nagging like no other mother would do.
I think real moms would say something "naggy" like this: "Eat your veggies." *smiles sweetly* The kid does not listen. "EAT YOUR VEGGIES, [Kid], OR NO DESSERT!" The kid eats.
Here's my mom: "EAT RIGHT NOW OR YOU'LL BE SENT TO YOUR ROOM. DO IT, DO IT, DO IT!!!" *continues screaming* *groan and sigh* *continues*
IT NEVER STOPS.
At first, I thought she was having a rough day. So I forgave her for all that rambling.
But she kept nagging at us, scolding us and eventually treated us like dirt. She was even angry on special occasions. "YOUR NOT DOING THAT RIGHT. HOW DARE YOU!! DO IT RIGHT!!! EAT IT, EAT IT, EAT IT!!! DON'T EVEN DARE DISOBEY YOUR MOTHER!"
That's what you'd hear on Christmas and New Year's if you were my mom's neighbor.
She was never happy. Eventually, I became unhappy all the time.
All because of her.
I told all this to Dad when he drove into our mother's driveway each Sunday night. Dad always knew how terrible she was.
He'd always tell me, "When you're older, you can go to court and tell them you don't want to go to your mother's house anymore."
I think the legal age you should be to be aloud to go to court is 12. Eh. That's what my Dad says.
Look at me. I'm 11. Turning 12 in March. Getting ready for braces and court. Yay. Could things get any worse than it is now? "Maybe." Not helping.
I've been dreading the day I'd go to court ever since my Dad told me when I could.
I'd feel so bad, getting up there and telling the world I don't want to see my own mother anymore. She brought me into this world, yet, I don't want to see her.
Saying that gives me headaches. Even thinking about this makes me feel worse.
I'm scared. Scared I might be a disgrace to the world, especially all the kids and mothers.
I have absolutely no idea what to do now. The stupid counselor only comes every 2-3 months or so...WHICH IS ALMOST FOREVER. I cannot wait that long.
In two months I'll be 12, and then it will be too late.
To all my friends online and offline: I know you want to help me, and I know you know that you can't help me with this, but thanks for being there and letting me tell you all how I feel. IT JUST KILLS KEEPING ALL THIS INSIDE. IT'S LIKE A HUGE, HEAVY WEIGHT BIGGER THAN THE UNIVERSE!!!
This "bigger-than-life" weight seems like it will scar my life forever.
Right now, I'm in desperate help. "Call Kids Help Phone. Counselors all over the place there. FOR CANADIANS ONLY! " I tried them. THEY SUCK.
I don't know who to turn, too.
But I guess I should relax and forget about this until the time is ready for me to think.
♥, Yuki
Friday, January 4, 2008, 12:06 PM
SORRY
I've been neglecting my blog so much lately. I'm very sorry.
Nothing much happened during the winter break. All I really did was play Maple Story. I got depressed, too.
Next week we're going back to school.
I've been neglecting you all so much because nothing happened or maybe I was too depressed to write.
If anything happens, I'll write as soon as I get the time to do it!
*bow* Really sorry, everyone.
♥, Yuki
Tuesday, January 22, 2008, 9:01 PM
Pixel Pop
My newest site! Thanks to Ruby for the idea of a new site!
It's a graphics site! I'll put all my pixels and avatars there!
Having trouble getting to the site? Click this link instead.
♥, Yuki
Wednesday, January 16, 2008, 5:16 PM
Death and Loss
Oh. My. God.
I've just found out that...Dad's friend died. It was during this morning.
That old guy that came to Dad's parties. He died.
My Dad has known him for 40 years. I've known the guy ever since I was, like, in diapers.
I miss the old dude. He gave me lots of stuff and was really kind to me.
Dad's gonna go to his funeral soon. Maybe I should go, too.
♥, Yuki
Tuesday, January 15, 2008, 7:18 PM
Change
I don't want to change! ... But I want to earn the respect from everyone I know ...
Today I've realized that everyone in my class hates me. Other than my friends.
Suuchi thinks that maybe I should be more positive. That I should be more friendly around others and not just around my friends.
Good advice.
But that'll take me a long time to get used to.
Sure, I'm negative, gloomy and quiet.
But does that give anyone the right to say I'm a B-word or that I suck?
I mean, what have I ever done to everyone? I haven't done anything to embarrass anybody, neither have I tried to be a "snitch" and get somebody in trouble.
My conscience says: " Dude, they hate your guts, you have to live with that."
Sure. Like I can live with a rotten community infested with disrespectful, spoiled, bratty peers.
Seriously.
Another friend of mine has told me to change my look, smile, and be nicer.
I could be nicer, but changing my look?! HECK, NO! I'm not going to change my straight, short hair into a long, frizzy disaster!
Neither am I going to try tying up my hair(tried that once, every kid in the school was practically laughing their heads off).
I could try putting a clip to keep the hair out of my eyes...
The smiling part is worse. I just can't.
I'm only comfortable around people I know. I just hate smiling around anyone else.
Last time I did that, I was known for being the ugliest girl in the school.
Ugh. Any girls that have been in this situation before? Your welcome to gimme all your advice in my CBox or just post a comment.
♥, Yuki
I'VE MOVED. THIS SITE IS NOW OFFICIALLY CALLED BITTER EMOTION!
Now I need to change my links ...
Thursday, January 10, 2008, 8:28 PM
"Bad" News
I haven't told you this, but...
Ever since the divorce, me and my brother have been forced to go to our mom's house. We weren't forced by our Dad, but by the law.
My mom can be very manipulative in public, especially in court. She begged the government to give her one day to spend with us, her kids. Just so she could make us miserable.
And that day was Sunday.
I really didn't care back then, I thought the usual thing you do around your mom when you were small.
" 'Yay! I'm going to see mommy! We'll have SO much fun playing! YAAAY!' Is that what you must've thought? " Err...yes.
Anyway, I kept thinking the same childish thought.
That thought stopped buzzing in my mind when my mother scolded me for the first time. Her voice was cold and shrill. It pierced me like a needle.
It was sometime when I was, like, 7 or something.
My thoughts of her completely changed from that day onward. "Dude, she just yelled at you once. "
No, she kept scolding me and my brother for apparently no reason at all. Nagging like no other mother would do.
I think real moms would say something "naggy" like this: "Eat your veggies." *smiles sweetly* The kid does not listen. "EAT YOUR VEGGIES, [Kid], OR NO DESSERT!" The kid eats.
Here's my mom: "EAT RIGHT NOW OR YOU'LL BE SENT TO YOUR ROOM. DO IT, DO IT, DO IT!!!" *continues screaming* *groan and sigh* *continues*
IT NEVER STOPS.
At first, I thought she was having a rough day. So I forgave her for all that rambling.
But she kept nagging at us, scolding us and eventually treated us like dirt. She was even angry on special occasions. "YOUR NOT DOING THAT RIGHT. HOW DARE YOU!! DO IT RIGHT!!! EAT IT, EAT IT, EAT IT!!! DON'T EVEN DARE DISOBEY YOUR MOTHER!"
That's what you'd hear on Christmas and New Year's if you were my mom's neighbor.
She was never happy. Eventually, I became unhappy all the time.
All because of her.
I told all this to Dad when he drove into our mother's driveway each Sunday night. Dad always knew how terrible she was.
He'd always tell me, "When you're older, you can go to court and tell them you don't want to go to your mother's house anymore."
I think the legal age you should be to be aloud to go to court is 12. Eh. That's what my Dad says.
Look at me. I'm 11. Turning 12 in March. Getting ready for braces and court. Yay. Could things get any worse than it is now? "Maybe." Not helping.
I've been dreading the day I'd go to court ever since my Dad told me when I could.
I'd feel so bad, getting up there and telling the world I don't want to see my own mother anymore. She brought me into this world, yet, I don't want to see her.
Saying that gives me headaches. Even thinking about this makes me feel worse.
I'm scared. Scared I might be a disgrace to the world, especially all the kids and mothers.
I have absolutely no idea what to do now. The stupid counselor only comes every 2-3 months or so...WHICH IS ALMOST FOREVER. I cannot wait that long.
In two months I'll be 12, and then it will be too late.
To all my friends online and offline: I know you want to help me, and I know you know that you can't help me with this, but thanks for being there and letting me tell you all how I feel. IT JUST KILLS KEEPING ALL THIS INSIDE. IT'S LIKE A HUGE, HEAVY WEIGHT BIGGER THAN THE UNIVERSE!!!
This "bigger-than-life" weight seems like it will scar my life forever.
Right now, I'm in desperate help. "Call Kids Help Phone. Counselors all over the place there. FOR CANADIANS ONLY! " I tried them. THEY SUCK.
I don't know who to turn, too.
But I guess I should relax and forget about this until the time is ready for me to think.
♥, Yuki
Friday, January 4, 2008, 12:06 PM
SORRY
I've been neglecting my blog so much lately. I'm very sorry.
Nothing much happened during the winter break. All I really did was play Maple Story. I got depressed, too.
Next week we're going back to school.
I've been neglecting you all so much because nothing happened or maybe I was too depressed to write.
If anything happens, I'll write as soon as I get the time to do it!
*bow* Really sorry, everyone.
♥, Yuki
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