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Tuesday, December 25, 2007, 12:14 PM
Black Christmas

Merry Christmas everyone.
I hope everyone is having fun today.

Unless you don't want me to spoil your fun, I suggest you stop reading this post.

Right now I'm in a bad mood. I was just crying a while ago.
" Of all days, DID YOU HAVE TO BE DEPRESSED ON CHRISTMAS DAY?!"
My answer: yes.

My depression hasn't really been "cured", so I still experience the blues every once in
a while. Usually for no apparent reason.

I barely feel sad for a reason or two.

But today, I did.

My dad asked me what I want for Christmas yesterday.
"I'll think about it," that was my reply.

Today, he got sort of impatient with me.

...Well, that's what I think.

I sort of gave up and said I didn't want a present and went to my room.
And then I started crying.

" WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG WITH YOU??? IT'S JUST A FREAKIN' PRESENT."

I cry about the smallest things. It's so stupid, I know.
I force myself to try look on the brighter side.
My conscience tells me to cheer up(it's the stupid voice that always says mean things), sometimes it seems like a agitated person controls the voice.

My conscience is a negative one. And maybe that's one of the reasons why I'm so depressed.

... Heck, what am I saying?!

Ugh, forget that.

I feel I don't deserve anything for Christmas, so I don't want a present.

All you lucky people out there, enjoy your Christmas and New Year's.

Later.

♥, Yuki




Thursday, December 20, 2007, 6:11 PM
Introducing...Freakshow!

Meet Kira and Freaky Bunny. The punk-rocker girl is Kira, and the innocent(maybe) bunny is her mischievous pet, Freaky Bunny.

Together, they are...FREAKSHOW!!!

Click the image to enlarge.

Here are some others.





Aw...isn't that cute? " Not really."

Yeah. That's it.

Hope you all like!

♥, Yuki




Friday, December 14, 2007, 4:36 PM
Do's and Don't's

This post is about what I will do on this blog and what I won't do.

They're basically blog rules for me and for the rest of you to know.

Do's
  • I will make picture for people I know in real life...as long as they go to my school(I'll make pics for you on your B-Days or any special occasion).
  • I will use fake names to keep people's identities secret(unless you want me too )
  • I also make pixels for people I know online! This one I only do for B-Days.
  • I wil make fake names for companies, cities, towns etc, etc.
  • I will update this post when I have more stuff to put on these lists.
  • I can ban people unless it's totally necessary.
  • This is my blog and I can do whatever I want to do with it! Let me do what I want with it.
  • I will be nice unless you be nice back!

Don't's
  • I won't expose anyone's identity unless I have their permission.
  • I won't give away drawings to random people!
  • I won't EVER expose the real names of places.
  • I won't tolerate with spammers or bullies. If you hate my site so much, why don't you just leave instead of waste your time complaining about how much you hate it?!


Remember that, my dear readers!

I'll update this post every once in a while, so I'll link this post to the About section. Keep checking back for do's and don't's!

Thanks for reading.

♥, Yuki




Saturday, December 8, 2007, 9:40 AM
DeviantArt

I'm a Deviant!

Go to my profile by clicking here!

♥, Yuki




Thursday, December 6, 2007, 7:42 PM
Big Sis


So here's a new picture. Lemme introduce you to my unique characters.
On the far left is Yuzu(you know her already... look for her in the Goods section). In the middle is ME! Well, the imaginary me... and the last but not least, is Shii.

These girls all represent something about me.
Yuzu is like my tough, adventurous and silly side.
The imaginary me is the one that does all the thinking and is optimistic(she always makes me feel better when I'm down). Shii is the one who links me to my unhappiness and maturity.
I've had visions of these girls for years.I figured they all represent me in some way, so I wanted to draw them and show the world.


Ha ha. This is a funny one.

I'm trying to run away from this stalker(the dude on the bike) and I'm begging Yuzu to take me with her. She has that "I'm leaving this crazy place." face.

That stalker is a real guy in my class. He REALLY stalks me.

In the picture he has black hair. In real life he's a blond. That dude is messed up.



You see a pattern in these 3 pictures?

Basically, Shii is sad and alone. Yuzu pops up and offers to be her friend. They have fun together.
These three pictures tell a story. My story.

I was all alone and I was unhappy. I found friends that helped me. I found more. I then received more help, and now, I'm up on my feet again.

See, like in my last post, all types of things can express yourself. You can draw, you can sing, you can dance...you could do anything to make you feel better!

Shii was lost. Shii was found. Shii was happy.

I was lost. I was found. I was happy.

***

I haven't seen the social worker in months. Nor have I seen Mrs. Hiroshima.

But today I did.

"Hello, are you [Yukino]?" The social worker was tall with brown hair. She was slim as a toothpick and held a clipboard.
"Yes, I am." I replied politely.
I stepped into Mr.s Hiroshima's office.
"Ok. I've spoken to your father about your problems and such. I know how it feels, hon," she paused. "Maybe you could tell me what gets you feeling down?"
I told her.
"Ok. So, maybe you could try spend more with others. I know a way you could! Here's a form to join the Big Brothers and Big Sisters of [Seel]."
Seel is the region I live in.
"Basically, you get a "big sister" and spend time with each other. They're like adult friends you can trust. You go to the movies, shopping...that kind of stuff. You can also talk to them about your problems and they'd help you with them. "
"Uh...I'm not so sure..."I gestured.
"Well, you could try it." She handed me the form. "If you don't like it, you can just tell me."
"Yeah...ok." I wasn't so sure about this.
I took the form.
"Well, it was nice to talk to you. I'll see you later, alright?"
"Ok, bye."

I wonder who my "big sister" will be. Hope she'll be nice...

♥, Yuki




Wednesday, December 5, 2007, 5:37 PM
Knowing Me Better

The title says it all!

Well, if you know nothing about me, read my profile. Seriously.

And those who know the basic stuff, here's more!

My gemstone is Aquamarine( WHOO! I HAVE A BLUE GEMSTONE!) and my Star sign is Pisces(it's a water-related sign).
You pretty much know the positive side of me...I'm pretty much 65% negative and 35% positive. I'm working on changing my personality...

Sometimes, when I think of poor people, I feel guilty. I have maybe ten times more then them(in everything that includes, food, clothes, friends and family...). I feel like a spoiled brat, too. I just feel luckier then them and that I've "sinned"(done bad stuff) that maybe I deserve to live in poverty like them.

The only thing that makes me feel better is giving to the poor, helping others and basically being a nice person.

Sometimes, I get depressed. You know, I'm growing up and turning into a teen. I'm basically going through puberty. That's part of the reason why I'm so sensitive and bratty(I get too sensitive and throw a tantrum. ). Another reason is because I was "unlucky"(sort of...I still feel guilty, now) and I had a bad mother who never loved me. She always let me get sick. She never spent much time with me. She just dumped me in front of the TV. I felt worthless.
So that caused me to lower my self-esteem(BIG time).
That also caused my depression.

It was too late when my father realized how badly she took care of me. So he took me and my brother away.
When my parents divorced, my brother was born. My brother never recalled anything at the time, so he lived a happier life. My brother would get lonely without a mom, and my Dad sent him to a babysitter. This babysitter was an old lady who was also an old friend. She loved and cared for my baby brother while my Dad went to work and I was learning at school. I'm happy for my brother. He was lucky.

On the other hand, I wasn't very lucky. I was once a straight A student. But when I realized what was happening around me, my past was unraveled and I finally understood. I was the worst time of my life when I realized this. My personality changed COMPLETELY and I was a whole new person. I was a really happy kid who always smiled like crazy and sang and danced a lot. But when I found out everything, I started to hate dancing and singing. I started to get gloomy. I didn't smile anymore and I never acted so enthusiastic anymore. Instead, I discovered some new talents of mine. I could write well and draw nicely. Some people noticed, but then they'd just walk away after a while.

I became invisible to other people. Though I stumbled upon some good friends. They understood how I felt and why I became like this and they liked my talents. They always stood up for me and taught me how to be more confident. They liked the jokes I told them. "You're such a funny person! Ha ha!" Suki said that some time ago.
I kept making more and more friends each year, while losing some, too.

So now I ended up with a whole group of friends that all share some of my interests.
We love to hang with each other and we know how to handle most of our problems now.

School is ok for me. Some people still don't understand me, but I just forget about them.

"Now, how about at home?"
Um...at home I'm not doing ok all the time. I had a stepmother once before. She hated me, though her stepdaughter thought of me as a real sister. I loved that stepsister as a real sister, too. But that stepmother thought I was making her daughter spend less time with her so they moved away.

Now I've gotten a stepsis and stepmom who both equally hate me. The stepsis is a spoiled brat and the stepmom hates me and my brother. I hate them back.
I get depressed most of the time at home. My friends aren't there to comfort me. I can't go to spend time with them either because they're busy or I am. The only thing that makes me feel better is writing and drawing to express my true feelings.

When I'm sad, I sometimes draw a girl crying. Her name would be...Shii.
Obviously, I write my rants, problems and woes here. I use big, lengthy words that describe my sadness. No. I don't. As you can see from the past few paragraphs, I don't use big, lengthy words that hurt people's brains. They hurt mine, too... really, I just use descriptive, easy to understand words that some people might find in chapter books.

If you suffer more than me(the guilt has come back to me...), than my best advice it to find a hobby, or use one of your hobbies, to tell the world how you feel. It's easy. If you like to sing, for example, write a song that expresses yourself.

"Um, ok. But that won't really help me 'cause...I have no hobbies really. I just sit around on the computer/TV and do nothing."

Well, you could do something that makes you happy. If you find doing that thing is fun, keep doing it! If you're good at it, then that could be both a talent and a hobby!

"Not working... "
Sorry, can't help you. Go to a school counselor or somebody you trust.

Yeah...did I also tell you that I like to give people advice? And that I give really bad advice, as some people say?
"We figured that."
Oh, ok.

That's more info on me. Hope you understand.

♥, Yuki




Monday, December 3, 2007, 5:48 PM
My Artwork

Here are some pictures from my sketch book, as I promised.

If you think they suck, DON'T SAY ANYTHING. JUST LEAVE. I don't want rude disrespectful people insulting my art. I'm trying, you know!
If you think it sucks, though you will say it in a more polite way, feel free to comment.

If you want to give me some tips or tell me stuff that I could improve on, post a comment.

Sadly, I don't have a scanner to scan these pics but whatever.

Anyway, onto the pictures!



On the left is a picture of my sketchbook. I have tons of these...they all look the same. The number of sketchbooks I have is somewhere in between 17-20. I can't remember...

Ok, I'm only gonna show you some of the pictures. Some of them are eyesores...




Here's a picture of Emily the Strange(right) in full color. No really, it's in full color. All the colors that the creators use for her are white and black.

Below is a
picture of Rukia. She's a character from Bleach. I drew this picture on Remembrance Day. If you're wondering what she's holding it's a flower.

You can't see the flower because the quality of my cam is not very good, but oh well.


Above this block of text is a girl holding a pearl. I drew this when I was bored. It's pretty random.

Yes, I really am sick. *sneezes and coughs* The ugly girl in bed is me. I'm staring at my sketchbook. "I wanna draw!! ...But I'm so sick that I'm confined to my own bed..."
The little guy is my brother having fun with our stepsister while I'm stuck in bed. Lucky...



If you're wondering why this picture is so ugly, this was a quick sketch. I drew it freehand.
This is a picture of a girl sprinting. I'm practicing perspective...though I'm not very good at it...



I don't draw a lot of guys(hey, I'm a girl, what do you expect?), but the time I drew this, I was in a "lets-draw-a-dude" mood. This guy is about to hit someone with a huge mallet. Sorry, if it doesn't look very "mallet-ish"...



Now, this one is a fave! I like this picture so much because it's effective. Right now we're looking at a picture of Mizu("Mizu? Who's Mizu???" Check out my adoptables and hover over a black-haired girl.) at a low-ground angle. This is my best try at perspective! I'm proud of it!



Eek... Now this one is the worst! I tried drawing a guy at a high angle. Not very good...



Oh! I forgot to tell you that I went to the Book Fair today! This is what I bought. I got a cute little bookmark that I can add to my collection( I have a collection of bookmarks...)! Then there are two fuzzy pencils that I got for 50¢!

Yeah, that's it. Hope ya like.

♥, Yuki