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Wednesday, October 31, 2007, 5:15 PM
Happy Halloween

Today I went to school...with my Halloween costume on.

It was a short black dress with a spiky, red collar. Some kids thought of wearing costumes, too. One of the kids even dressed up as Luigi! Oh jeez...that was an eyesore!
Asagi dressed up as a witch. She had a long, black dress. Kimi and Suuchi brought some sweets! There were Tootsie rolls, fruit cake, Maynard's, and cupcakes!
Man, that was tasty...
We had all that sugar the first thing when we got to school.
The result was chaotic... Classmates were running around the classroom screaming.
Oh wow...

***

When it was lunch, my friends and I headed to the Community Center. I borrowed some books. There was a book that matched the season. It was entitled Emily the Strange. It's a comic book with a collection of the spooky and whacked out tales of Emily Strange. It's cute, cool, creepy and Gothic all in one book. I read the first book in the series. It's very...eerie. Here's the cover:

Interesting? I find it so.
I'm already hooked to this series! I'm gonna borrow more in the series.

If you want more Emily, click the link below.
EmilyStrange.com
Emily Strange Clothing

See you. "Get lost!" - Emily

♥, Yuki




Monday, October 29, 2007, 7:39 PM
Just to Kill Time...

I'm way past this episode, but I just felt like posting it.
You can watch it if you're bored. I'm sure you'll get hooked!




Wanna watch something else? Heh, this is funny! Try Ouran High School Host Club. Jeez, the title is so long...
Anyway, enjoy!



♥, Yuki




5:53 PM
Oops

Oops. I did it again. I UPDATED AGAIN!! Sorry, if this annoys you.
It's still Fall. But I can't wait until Winter! So I put up this layout as a sign of appreciation. To winter.
Heh. Well, anyways, enjoy the new look.

♥, Yuki




3:51 PM
Fallen Leaf

We all fall down...

Today I went to Mrs. Lu's office again. This time, Mrs. Lu wasn't there.
Another counselor, Mrs. Hiroshima, was waiting for me instead.
"Oh, hello. You're [Yukino], right?"
"Oh, y-yes.", I stuttered. We walked into the office beside Mrs. Lu's.
We took a seat. "As you know, all the information you've given will be confidential."
"Ok."
I started to tell her my story. She understood.
"Well, it seems like you're going through a lot." All the counselors say that...
"Have you discussed your feelings with your family."
"Yes." I answered softly. "My dad knows what I'm going through."
"That's good."
We paused for a moment.
"Well, thanks for coming. It was nice to meet you."
I stood up and said goodbye.

***

As I walked home, I thought about Mrs. Hiroshima. I thought about my life.
"I'm like a leaf. Swaying on a branch and slowly losing my grip on life. One day I will fall. And become a fallen leaf.", I thought as I kicked the autumn leaves. "Maybe I might hold on a little longer. Maybe this all might stop. Then I won't be a fallen leaf." I kicked the leaves and watched them dance with the wind. They circled around me and across the pavement.
"These leaves bring back old memories. Memories with my old friends." I pictured all my friends back in elementary school. We were crazy little kids with crazy little dreams. Life was easy back then. Laid back. I miss those days. I miss my family, too.

&hearts, Yuki




Friday, October 26, 2007, 9:26 PM
PARTY ANIMALS

Wow, that was long day.

I went on a field trip to the Peel Heritage Complex. We learned about the First Nations people. We also made ancient crafts the Aboriginals made. Like this pouch thing.

After school, I went to Asagi's house. I met her mom and there was a party.
We were all running around the house like crazy! I haven't been to a party in such a long time!

At the party, we ate pizza, chocolate cookies, chocolate cupcakes, candy and chips!
It was a fatso's dream come true!

We watched the movie, Corpse Bride. We played games, too.

I just came back from the party! It was so long!

Wow.

♥, Yuki




Thursday, October 25, 2007, 10:09 PM
Bleach Ending 5 & Opening 3



Bleach Opening 3: Ichirin No Hana




Bleach Ending 5: Life

Lol, it's like Bleach is a never-ending anime!
I think Bleach is currently on episode 144 or something. So I will be flooding my blog with anime theme songs, videos, games and all that I can think of! Nah, I'm just gonna put the same stuff.

See ya!

♥, Yuki




6:03 PM
"I Can Help Myself If I Try"

I can, you know.

Today I went to the school counselor, Mrs. Lu.
At first, I was nervous to go into her office. But I gathered all my courage and went in.
"U-um...is Mrs. Lu available?", I stammered.
"That's a good question, she's over there in her office." The secretary pointed to the left doorway. The room had a bunch of posters that were related to counseling and helping kids. I saw a KidsHelpPhone poster.
There was a big table in the middle of the room with a bunch of chairs.
"Um, hi."
"Hello. You need something?"
"Yes, I came to get some counseling."
"Ok, please sit at the table and wait for a moment. I will be right with you."
I sat down and examined the room. "Wow, this room is cramped.", I thought.
Mrs. Lu was on the phone.
"Yeah, ok. Ok, goodbye." She hung up. "Come in."
I got out of the chair and went into her small office. "Wow, it's even more cramped in here!", I thought again.
I sat down in one of the chairs beside the door.
"So, first of all, what is your name?"
"My name is [Yukino]."
She wrote it down in a notepad.
"So what's the problem?"
"I have depression and I'm dealing with family issues."
She wrote that down, too.
I told her everything. My depression, my family.
Yeah.
"Well, you've come to the right place." She answered. "I'm a counselor for grade 7's and 8's and there is this another counselor that deals with grade 6's problems. She comes every Thursday. There is also a social worker that comes on Thursdays, too.
She will get a form for your father to sign so she can legally counsel you."
"Ok. Um, when will I get this form?"
"I need to tell her that she will counsel you. I will email her your information to her and she will send back the form."
"Ok."
"I have to get back to work, so I will see you later. Goodbye."
"Bye..."

***

Yeah, so then I went outside waited for the bell and did the school work.

I feel a lot better today now that I've gotten help. I'm sure I will be ok.

♥, Yuki




Tuesday, October 23, 2007, 10:43 PM
Hope

It's night right now.

I wanted to tell you all something fantastic!

I've finally let out my feelings.
After three years of holding all of that inside. I finally let it out.

Here's how I did it:

I was on the computer, looking for music to ease me. I was depressed.
I paused for a second and decided to look at self-help web pages. Self-help pages with articles on depression.
Dad was right beside me. I asked him, "How can depression effect a person?"
Man, I'm always asking stupid questions...
"In a very bad way. It's unhealthy." He turned to look at me. "Are you depressed?"
Whenever a parent asks you a question, you can't just say nothing and walk away. They give you this glare-like look that burns holes through your head. It's so intimidating that you have no choice but to spit out the answer.
"Y-yes..."
"Why are you sad?"
"Maybe 'cause I'm growing up?"
"There are many things you could be sad about."
I started to read from the depression article. " ' The symptoms of depression can be fatigue, change in diet, and suicide ideation. ' "
Yes, I have all of those symptoms... I'm always tired and I never want to eat. I've also wrote on here about suicide...
" ' Ways of treating depression is to take medication, get counseling or a mixture of both. ' ", I continued.
"Do you know why you're depressed?"
"Um...because I'm growing up?"
"No," He paused. "It mostly because of our family. Since you never had a mother to love you, our family isn't normal."
He had a point...
My Dad kept asking me questions.
What makes you feel happy? What do you do when you are sad? Do you feel all alone sometimes? Do people hurt your feelings? He acted more like a child psychologist then a computer programmer(that's his job)...

Finally, he ended the conversation.
"Don't worry. Daddy's here to help you."
I thanked him.

Maybe I have some hope of becoming happy again. I never realized it, but I was happy for only four years of my life. From when I was an infant to a four-year-old toddler.
I started realizing how bad the environment around me was, and I started to hate it.
I started getting depressed when I was nine.
Maybe that's all gonna change. Maybe I might get help and have my problems solved.
Just maybe. My misery might come to an end.

♥, Yuki




7:52 PM
The Downside of Maple Story

Click here and here.

Laugh your head off! I recommend watching this for both Maple Story players and non-players!

HA HA!!

♥, Yuki




Monday, October 22, 2007, 4:27 PM
Partay!

I know, I misspelled party. But I'm just putting some emotion and expression into the word.

Anyway, today I was invited to a party! A Halloween party. Asagi was the hostess of the party. She said there would be music, a movie, food and party games!
I can't wait to go! ...But first, I gotta tell Dad I'm invited... Oh gosh, what if I can't go?! Man, I haven't been to a party for months!

Yeah, that's pretty much it.

♥, Yuki




Sunday, October 21, 2007, 8:09 PM
Teardrop

FINALLY, AN INTERESTING POST FOR ONCE!!!

Anyway, today was another stupid Sunday...I did my usual stuff.
But today, I did something different. I brought my library book with me.



Here's the description from eBay.

The book is entitled Define "Normal". A good book.
It reminded me of how I always felt. Depressed and lonely.

The story is about a 14-year-old girl named Antonia Dillon. She joins the new peer counseling group, but suddenly she wants to quit. Why? Because she's found out that her peer she will counsel is Jazz Luther. A punk, druggie, and gang hanger.
They turn out to be enemies at first, but slowly their friendship blossoms.
They find out that they both have a lot more in common then they both expected.

The story is rather...dark. These girls go through a lot together. They told each other what happens to both of them. They grow to understand each other and actually become friends.

I really like it. It reminds me of how I feel. This punk girl searches for help through a peer counselor. Both their lives suck all the way. But they notice that they have a lot in common and that they aren't alone. These to friends are both depressed and have gone through a lot. Jazz's parents are control freaks and Antonia's parents are divorced.

Last night, I stayed up late. I was depressed and looked at counseling and help sites. I tried looking for articles on depression, divorce and suicide ideation. One of the articles that you need to see a child psychologist and get some therapy. Oh, gosh...getting therapy makes me feel like I need to go to a mental hospital...the thought of a mental hospital makes me shudder...

That book can really compare to my life.

It's really good. You should go search a book store or library catalog and find this book. I recommend it!

♥, Yuki




Saturday, October 20, 2007, 8:50 PM
Bleach Ending 4



Bleach Ending 4: Happy People

Again I keep forgetting the artist's name!

Anyway, enjoy.

♥, Yuki




5:28 PM
GTalk

Nothing much happened today.

I didn't do much. I did my regular Saturday things. Computer, TV, library...

Yeah.

But I'd just like to show you the Google Talk gadget.



Cool, huh?

Chat with me if you like. My email is Yukino111@gmail.com. You better not spam me!

Anyway, I'll see you later.

♥, Yuki




Friday, October 19, 2007, 3:49 PM
So-So

Today was actually a decent Friday(FINALLY! )
I did stuff with my friends...

and I lost my sketchbook...but I found it. It was in Math class.

Right now I'm in a bad mood. I'm scared that my Dad will yell at me like last night.

The reason was that I always got ticked off when ever I had to do homework with my brother.

I became depressed and just crawled into bed. I quietly cried myself to sleep.

I wanted to go to bed and wake up when everyone was asleep, so I could have some time to myself. But when I woke up, Dad came downstairs and asked me sternly, "Why are you up so late?"
"Um...I lost track of time.", I answered in a shaky voice.
"I want to talk to you about your brother."
Bad news.
"Why are you like this to your brother? Are you fed up with him"
No answer.
"Dad does things that he doesn't want to do everyday. All I ask you is, help your brother."
Silence.
Dad kept pestering me with questions until he said I had to go to bed.
"I want you to answer my questions tomorrow."
I dumped myself onto my bed and cried myself to sleep.

When I woke up this morning, I wanted to go back to sleep. My eyes hurt from all that crying last night.

I still feel sad.

♥, Yuki




Thursday, October 18, 2007, 4:59 PM
Accepted!



I've been accepted into the Anti-Hentai hate listing!

This is the first award I've ever gotten(uh...I guess it's an award, but whatever!)!

By the way, if you think something happened, NOTHING DID.

...Actually something did happen.
Mizu isn't my friend anymore. She doesn't spend time with me anymore. She doesn't like me.
I felt so bad when I heard her say that. I guess I might end up losing everyone else.

♥, Yuki

P.S. Click on the image to make it bigger.




Wednesday, October 17, 2007, 3:47 PM
Snoooooze...

You expect something special to happen everyday, right?

Sadly, it's not always like that...

What I'm trying to say is, nothing happened.

I think it's pointless posting when nothing happened. I'll just skip some days if nothing happens.

♥, Yuki




Tuesday, October 16, 2007, 4:47 PM
Bookworm

Nothing happened today...

I went to the library and stuff.

Now I have a book report!
Do you know which book I'm doing? The War of The worlds!
Heard of it? Read it? I watched the movie. IT'S CRAZY!! Freaky science fiction flick I watched a couple of years ago.
Very intense! Suspenseful. And very scary...

Yeah, read the book. It's pretty good, even though the vocabulary is a bit advanced for me( Too many big words!).

I borrowed books from the Community Center library, too. Mostly manga. I can never get enough of those good reads!
I got a craft book, too.

There's nothing else to talk about...except ideas for my Halloween party costume
("What the heck are you talking about?!" Read the post below.).

Yeah...well, later.

♥, Yuki




Monday, October 15, 2007, 3:36 PM
Upcoming Events

IT'S BLOG ACTION DAY!!

Here's some tips on how to save the environment.

Save electricity. Don't turn on every light in the house and leave it on for the rest of the day! Using up to much electricity will hurt the environment. We need to save power and lose it only when we really need it.
Don't litter. You don't want to be one of those smelly litter bugs, right? Then don't litter! If we litter all over the place, who's gonna clean it all up? Nobody!
So then animals could mistake all our waste as food, and die from swallowing tinfoil or a balloon!
Some garbage could hurt animals, like pieces of glass.
We need the animals so we can have food, and without the animals we could starve!
So don't litter!

These are some environmental tips that could help us save the Earth! Remember them!

***

Now, what happened today?

Nothing.

I have a test tomorrow and the library was closed.

But, we did talk about an upcoming seasonal event!

Halloween!

Suuchi is bringing in cupcakes for a Halloween party. Some of my classmates will dress up!
I want to dress up, too. Don't get the wrong idea! I'm too old to go Trick-or-Treating. I had the idea of dressing up like a punk. Freaky idea, right? Can someone give me some good costume ideas? I'm not excepting vamps, witches, or Frankensteins! I can just imagine how stupid I would look...

Please comment!



♥, Yuki




Sunday, October 14, 2007, 11:37 PM
Bleach Season 3




I'm so bad. I keep spoiling my readers when it comes to anime!
Anyway, this is the Bleach opening for Season 2. "D-technolife" by someone...



This is the 3rd ending. Houki Boushi. Erm...I forgot who wrote and sang this song...
Sorry about the bad quality.

G'night.

♥, Yuki




7:42 PM
Announcement!

Today was a boring, regular Sunday, so I don't have to tell you the boring details.

Anyway, I just want to remind you that tomorrow is Blog Action Day! I'm gonna post about my day and about saving the environment.
Nature is a very important thing in my life. I want to keep the Earth clean so we can live.
If we keep killing the Earth, we'll get killed, too. So I want to support Blog Action Day! Look at this post to find out more about Blog Action Day!

I also would like to announce that I have some new affies! Jan and Aly! They're really nice people that I made friends with!
I met Aly first. She told me her blog URL. Then I met Jan.
She was having a "battle of the blogs" with Aly. Aly and her friend, Lexy, discovered some of their site content on Jan's blog. I got stuck in between the war.
Jan told me not to butt into other people's business, which is a very bad habit of mine. I realized the stupid mistake I made and apologized.
Aly and Jan stopped fighting and became friends, so now everything is cool.
HERE'S A SHOUT OUT TO MY FRIENDS, READERS & AFFIES! YOU GUYS ROCK!

♥, Yuki




Saturday, October 13, 2007, 10:29 PM
Bleach Ending 2



Just watch the video...


One of my favorite ending themes! Hee hee...

Enjoy.

♥, Yuki