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I understand everything now! Now I won't be lost in the dark anymore.
I feel so much better now. I finally have been told why this has happened and why I never had a real Mom. I found this out yesterday. "Are you ok, [Yukino]?", asked Dad. "I'm great.", I answered sarcastically. There was a ticked off expression on my face. "Did you talk to [Mrs. Hiroshima]?" "Yes. She said she is going to let the social worker help you. I think she's afraid that you will kill yourself and she will be responsible." "I don't think I would do that." "Well, you did say that you thought of suicide." "Yeah, only thought." "Do you know exactly why you're sad?" "No. I wish I did. Then this would all be over. I only know that I lived with an abnormal family and I'm sad about it. And I don't know why." Silence. "When you were little," Dad began, "You lived with the whole family. Neither of us ever got to spend time with you. I had to go to work and you mother didn't care about you. She never spent time with you. She could, but she didn't want to. I had to work and pay the bills. She had no job, and nothing to pay for. She could spend as much time with you as possible. But she didn't. She just put you in front of a TV. She treated you like a beanbag. Just put you on the couch, in front of TV for the whole day. That makes you feel worthless, right? This is why you have low self-esteem. You think you're worthless." There were tears welled up in my eyes. They tumbled down my cheeks. "Sh - she did that?", I stuttered. "I never noticed until you were four. You still didn't even know how to speak! She was obviously not taking care of you. I was really mad when I found out. "She gambled, too. She gambled in the stock market. After that, she wanted all my money so I left her. We had a fight in court and I won. I took you two away because I didn't want you to be damaged anymore." More and more tears flowed out of my eyes and down my cheeks. "SHE DID THAT TO HER OWN CHILD???", I thought angrily. "She even let you get hypothermia. She didn't dress you properly and brought you outside when it was cold. You froze up. I was very angry at her. She didn't take care of you." Now that he mentioned it, I remembered a time when I was outside. Shivering. I was crying and I had a runny nose. I saw a lot of white. It was snow. I was all cold and sick. My body was all pale and shriveled up. I was freezing like heck. I wore these thin clothes. I was crying loudly and coughed. "She didn't love you, either. When I found out what happened to you, it was too late. But I loved you. I liked to take out to places. Look." He pointed to the photo albums. I took one of them and look at all my baby pictures. I was smiling in every picture. I was all chubby and fat. I looked so happy. "You were a happy baby. See?" Dad pointed to a picture of myself holding a dandelion and smiling. Then we started seeing pictures of my brother. Our friend's grandma started babysitting my brother when he was a baby. Grandma loved him. "See, your brother was a bit better than you. He is happy. Grandma was there to care for him." I saw a picture of Grandma hugging my brother. I was so happy for him. I'm happy he didn't suffer with me. I started to cry happy tears. I was so glad. My brother wasn't hurt. "Grandma had to stop babysitting your brother because your mother gave her trouble. It's too bad Grandma couldn't care for your brother longer." That's true. "Your mother never cared for you. She didn't act like a mother. She had some mental problems, and because of that, she lost her mother instinct." Mother instinct? "Mother instinct is what every mother has. The instincts for caring and loving children. Mothers played with their children, but did your mother play with you?" No. I only sat in front of the TV all day. I just nibbled on a bit of food and watched more TV. She didn't play with me. Ever. "We fathers have the father instinct. We protect our kids. We buy stuff you need and bring you to places. That kind of thing. But a father can never replace a mother's love. Never. I spent time with you for your whole life. I tried to make you happy. But I was always busy with work. So I didn't get time to spend with you two. You ended up feeling unloved. You never had a mother's love." It was true. I did feel unloved. "The social worker will help you with your problem, but she won't fix it completely." I guess the rest would be up to me. I think I can fix myself if I try.
♥, Yuki
Friday, November 2, 2007, 5:03 PM
Unloved
I understand everything now! Now I won't be lost in the dark anymore.
I feel so much better now. I finally have been told why this has happened and why I never had a real Mom. I found this out yesterday. "Are you ok, [Yukino]?", asked Dad. "I'm great.", I answered sarcastically. There was a ticked off expression on my face. "Did you talk to [Mrs. Hiroshima]?" "Yes. She said she is going to let the social worker help you. I think she's afraid that you will kill yourself and she will be responsible." "I don't think I would do that." "Well, you did say that you thought of suicide." "Yeah, only thought." "Do you know exactly why you're sad?" "No. I wish I did. Then this would all be over. I only know that I lived with an abnormal family and I'm sad about it. And I don't know why." Silence. "When you were little," Dad began, "You lived with the whole family. Neither of us ever got to spend time with you. I had to go to work and you mother didn't care about you. She never spent time with you. She could, but she didn't want to. I had to work and pay the bills. She had no job, and nothing to pay for. She could spend as much time with you as possible. But she didn't. She just put you in front of a TV. She treated you like a beanbag. Just put you on the couch, in front of TV for the whole day. That makes you feel worthless, right? This is why you have low self-esteem. You think you're worthless." There were tears welled up in my eyes. They tumbled down my cheeks. "Sh - she did that?", I stuttered. "I never noticed until you were four. You still didn't even know how to speak! She was obviously not taking care of you. I was really mad when I found out. "She gambled, too. She gambled in the stock market. After that, she wanted all my money so I left her. We had a fight in court and I won. I took you two away because I didn't want you to be damaged anymore." More and more tears flowed out of my eyes and down my cheeks. "SHE DID THAT TO HER OWN CHILD???", I thought angrily. "She even let you get hypothermia. She didn't dress you properly and brought you outside when it was cold. You froze up. I was very angry at her. She didn't take care of you." Now that he mentioned it, I remembered a time when I was outside. Shivering. I was crying and I had a runny nose. I saw a lot of white. It was snow. I was all cold and sick. My body was all pale and shriveled up. I was freezing like heck. I wore these thin clothes. I was crying loudly and coughed. "She didn't love you, either. When I found out what happened to you, it was too late. But I loved you. I liked to take out to places. Look." He pointed to the photo albums. I took one of them and look at all my baby pictures. I was smiling in every picture. I was all chubby and fat. I looked so happy. "You were a happy baby. See?" Dad pointed to a picture of myself holding a dandelion and smiling. Then we started seeing pictures of my brother. Our friend's grandma started babysitting my brother when he was a baby. Grandma loved him. "See, your brother was a bit better than you. He is happy. Grandma was there to care for him." I saw a picture of Grandma hugging my brother. I was so happy for him. I'm happy he didn't suffer with me. I started to cry happy tears. I was so glad. My brother wasn't hurt. "Grandma had to stop babysitting your brother because your mother gave her trouble. It's too bad Grandma couldn't care for your brother longer." That's true. "Your mother never cared for you. She didn't act like a mother. She had some mental problems, and because of that, she lost her mother instinct." Mother instinct? "Mother instinct is what every mother has. The instincts for caring and loving children. Mothers played with their children, but did your mother play with you?" No. I only sat in front of the TV all day. I just nibbled on a bit of food and watched more TV. She didn't play with me. Ever. "We fathers have the father instinct. We protect our kids. We buy stuff you need and bring you to places. That kind of thing. But a father can never replace a mother's love. Never. I spent time with you for your whole life. I tried to make you happy. But I was always busy with work. So I didn't get time to spend with you two. You ended up feeling unloved. You never had a mother's love." It was true. I did feel unloved. "The social worker will help you with your problem, but she won't fix it completely." I guess the rest would be up to me. I think I can fix myself if I try.
♥, Yuki
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